Monday, March 2, 2009 7:28 PM
Change of mind!!!
hey guys...i knw i havent been blogging for the past few days..due to being grounded and stuff..still am but its not that tight when it came to ground rules... anyways i will stop crapping and spill all my secrets..well not really secrets..hehe
i knw how i have been very upset lately and having thoughts of wanting to go back to new york and live with my mom..as in like give her a second chance....
i remember telling Kp that i will try talking to my dad and ask him if i can continue my junior and senior year at Staples..sorry to say but my dad say it was up to me with the additional of some lectures..which made me change my mind...
i do want to come back..but that would be selfish of me once again...i have already hurt the ones i love at westport buy leaving last summer and i dont want to do the same mistake by hurting more people over here in Malaysia
Seriously..how many peoples feelings am i gonna hurt..this is obsurdly selfish of me...
the conclusion is me staying in Malaysia till my senior year is over which is like another 1 and a half years.... i have gotta strive through it without changing my mind as and when i like... I hope god is ther with me
And Minn.... i hope i made you happy by not leaving too soon.... i have been planning my Sweet 16 or the past few days and my dad wants me to give out invitations one or two months before the party....you gotta help with with name list and stuf...xoxo
And Kristyn...i know i got your hopes down...and i dont mind if you dont forgive me but plz dont ever hate me for this.... you know i will still want you and love you no matter what....xoxo